D15

I know why is she annnoyed and hate to . Because I appear again after a long time, just hospitality ? Nonsense she said. I understand why she like that. Since I said the fact that the past cannot be changed and why didn't give any information about me.
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Then she asked me why and what I want from her.
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"I want to give a certainty and clarity. All this time before I dare my self to meet her. I believe in The God's plan and His choice is more than the best amazing. And I believe it until I met her again in unexpected meeting, and if she is an answer from each my pray in the third of night. I don't want give a fake hope to her until I'm ready. Then I said seiously I want to be part of her dream and her future life and her soulmate in the world and afterlife". I answered.

Short Story Part One ~ The End

                                                  ..riNri180125.

D14

It has been more than two weeks more or less. I lose you. I didn't get any info about you. I didn't know how are you. Are you fine or you maybe get an accident.
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Oh now, it is my bad feeling. Suddenly, you like disappear from the world. I find about how are you via social media but no sign from you. I don't know your phone number, I'm not brave to ask you. Hufft.
Please tell me how are you now.
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"Just because I don't talk to you to or text you first, doesn't mean I don't miss you. I'm just waiting for you to miss me."
Surely, I miss you.
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*I miss your writing*

                                                  ..riNri180124.

D13

People said they're always waiting for Saturday and Sunday, because it's weekends and it's a holiday time. But for me, Saturday and Sunday just as like Monday, those aren't holiday time because I really have to work at that days.
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Today is so crowded. And I'm so hectic and busy with my work. Beside that, my mind is in a mess. There are many incidents that happen today. Such as i'm waiting transjakarta busway until a very long time in the wrong shelter. Then the traffic jam is so annoying.
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And the last is because unexpected meeting yesterday. I met him. He who have been disappeared that appears in front of me. Now, I  thought because of it.
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"The past cannot be changed, forgetten, edited or erased. It can only be accepted."
I hope it is not a bad sign, but it is a good sign for my better future life.

                                                  ..riNri180113.

D12

Friday.
It's Friday, which always full of surprises all day long. Besides that, it is the right time to sharing and giving everything useful you have to the other people.
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Especially, on this day. It's a day full of blessing. Moreover, "Whenever you're in position to help someone just do it and be glad because God is answering someone's prayers through you".
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What do you give is not only as tangible as money but also other such as donor your blood. Because "if you're a blood donor you're a hero for someone, somewhere will receive your gracious gift of life and it's not just blood, it's a liquid life".
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Yeah, I feel so healthy and excited. It's the right time to donor my blood which I do each three months. It's an enjoyable morning. Then after I finish blood donor.......
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Suddenly, I'm so surprised. Again. Unexpected meeting.
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The people said "The first meeting was accidentally but how do you explain the next meeting ? What God is intended to".
I meet again with her. She has just finished blood donor.
I'm so speechless.
I feel my pray have been answered by God.
Then I dare myself to call her.
Hey...Arin ? You're in here.
I'm smiled ^_^

                                                  ..riNri180112.

Challenge | D11

The library is a place where we can feel silence. It was weekend so there wasn't too much visitors who came as usual. I like crowded situation but I need a situation like as in the library but only with a few visitors.
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Especially it was still morning. Listening music on iPod. Focus to finish my report. It was pleasure. For me, "Library like a hospital for my mind".
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It has been one hour since I have been here. Finally I finished my report. Then, I read a book until lunch time. I guess it was right estimation before I went to my class. And then, I was brought to writer's imagination world from the book that I read.
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Until in the end
"Excuse me... excuse me...  excuse me. Hey you"
"Sorry your phone was ringing"
"Hey... your phone was ringing"
"Hey....hey....hey....."
"Your phone was ringing from earlier. And it was too loud"
"Please hang up your phone and go outside or turn off it. You didn't see all eyes are on you".
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I was shocked because of it. What a surprise, this situation, and how shameful it is. I saw besides me, there was the library officer come over to me and beside him the girls who had just call me. Then I shut off my phone.
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It was make all of people here chaos. Until the situation back to normal. I ask the girl who call me a moment ago.
"Hey... How many times my phone was ringing ?"
"It was seven times and the sound was too loud" she replied.
Oh my goodness, I forget to make my phone in silent mode.
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Then I saw that girl who sit in front of my table. In silence, she was like as figure in a book which I read.
"There's something about woman with a loud mind that so silence, smiling, knowing she can crush you with the truth".

                                                  ..riNri180111.

Challenge | D10

I didn't know since when I know about her. But I believe surely, she is a person whom I know. Before that, honestly I didn't too know about her. I just know we are a students in the same university. She is younger than me. At that time, I was in the third grade and she were in the first grade.
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I forget the time exactly when we first met and talking with her. I guess if I'm not wrong, when I was in the library. Sometimes I often saw her with her friends but often times just saw her alone.
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Hmm, I remember in the beginning knowing and talking to each other was because of the embracing incident in a that place. After that, we often communicated each other.
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Then, I also knew that she was an active in the students affairs organization and when she was in third grade she often joins voluntary activity in some NGOs.
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After that I lost contact with her. It has been seven years ago.
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Then, from a distant places in the world I met her accidentally. We met in unexpected condition out of town. Unfortunately, she didn't see me and I don't have time to call her because of we was in the crowded situation. Since a long time honestly I am curious about her.
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Because of that I try to find out about her in social media. I've just knew we are be friends in some social media. When I saw stories in instagtam. I watch some stories in her account. She share her writing which she wrote for one week in her instastory.
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In my deepest heart, I want to sorry with her cause of the last time thing. There are more things that I want to say to her actually, for the past, present, and the future life. I want to make better relationship with her. Then I decide to contact her via direct message in Instagram.
                                                  ..riNri180110.

Challenge | D9

I am tired. I want to stop. I don't know what I want to write anymore. I want to against rules what I've made. I want to disappeared and ran away from my dream world.
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Aish why am I ?
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I guess I experienced problem with myself. My mind is in a mess. I have high expectation because of someone. It's been along time I didn't hear a news about him. Suddenly it appears to me via a chat last night. He calls me after he saw my instastory. He said he likes stories that I wrote. It's was a long chat, then because of him I remember again about our memories.
No, I don't want to tell about him. Please enough. I don't what I want to write today.
Oh God.
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This quote makes me understand why I am today "Sometimes you will never know value of a moment until it becomes a memory".
                                                  ..riNri180109.

Challenge | D8

Today I don't know what I want to write because during the day I didn't go anywhere, so I don't get any inspiration (Just alibi 😆) Even so, I have fulfill my challenge, therfore for today, I will write about the favorite writing from my editor. Her choice and her reason.
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And the favorite writing my editor's choice is The Sweetest Friday 👏👏👏
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She said "Because I got the story clearly. Then, she love the storyline better rather than the others story. The flow went smooth, very smoothly. The emotion run through every single sentence. It's well elaborated in one single theme. She means the supporting details I made do really support the idea of why does that friday was really sweet for me. Others are still like, just a random thought she guess. Just to fullfill my duty to write: to submit one single story. Don't care what was is all about as long as I have some sentence written" (*My editor said :*)
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I will introduce my sweet editor in the last day of challenge if you all want to know more about her. And she is still single 😍
Thanks for your advice my sweetest editor. I do love you so much
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Aaaakk it's the best advice from her.
..riNri180108.

Challenge | D6-D7 |

D6 | Laziness
What do you want to do on the weekend ? I guess it's the right time to do nothing. I just sleep until i'm hungry then eat until i'm sleepy then watch KDrama until I stay up all night.
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People said "There's one of those days where you don't feel like doing anything. Then, there's nothing wrong with being lazy sometimes, you're not lazy, you're just highly motivated to do nothing.And you're just on your energy saving mode".
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And i'm lazy to think what I want to write for today. Maybe it's lazy time for me :D
So happy lazy time for you who want laziness of doing nothing on the weekend :)
..riNri180106.

D7 | Face Monday
It's the last weekend. Sunday is almost finished. It is not lazy time for me again. It's the right time to prepare everything for tomorrow and start your weekdays, such as cleaning up, preparing your stuff for, and relaxing yourself to face along weekdays, so your body and soul will recharge again.
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Maybe some people hate tomorrow, yeah it's Monday. I've read a quote "Eventough you hate tomorrow (Monday)  and maybe it is not one of you're favorites but never forget that everyday you wake up is an amazing gift and *it's up to count it as amazing gift or not".
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Enjoy the last minutes of your weekend and keep fighting to face your weekdays :)
Happy enjoying your everyday.
..riNri180107.

A Piece of Story

The doors to go anywhere and bamboo propeller. Two items that I most remember about Doraemon. And if it was real in front of me, I want to have them. Then, I can come to each corner of the world with them.

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Doraemon....... Would you like to borrow me the items to me ? Only for a day. I want to explore the world in a day.
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Oh ya, one day will not enough to explore the world. What a pity
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I want to make a lot of journeys in this life. I want to explore the world. And, I can enjoy all the process in my life.
Live, Enjoy, and Be Grateful.

                                                  ..riNri180224.

Challenge | D5 | The Sweetest Friday

I didn't know since when, but someday I think about it.
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I ever think about it "What do I want someone to remember about me or How can I create the right first impression with someone".
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Every weekdays for one month, I'm in here (the government office building). There is someone who stealing my attention. Every time he throughs me, no word to say or just a smile so do I. Just so so. It's only an eyesight that I see several times he divarage from his room to another room in front of me.
But in today is so different. I see his smile and I try to reply his smile, eventough he doesn't see my smile. Then I just stunned when he trough me. And when we face eye to eye each other, it feels so awkward.
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Oh no, this feelings comes again. What kind of feeling is it?
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Unfortunately, this is my last day in that place.
And I think for one month being here. It's my sweetest Friday.
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Suddenly, I guess he remembers me about someone :D
What a pity I don't know who is he :D

                                                  ..riNri180105.

Challenge | One Day One Paragraph | D2-D4

D2 | Strength and Weakness
Strength and Weakness is part of yourself. Your strength is your weakness and your weakness is your strength.
Why? Because God entrusted strength in each of your weakness either does weakness in each of your strength, and it is the most important points that you must know about yourself.
If you've already knew it, you can improve yourself.
Knowing yourself, dig the potency of you're self, set your motivation to get your goals, and don't forget to appreciate yourself.
"Be the best of yourself"
..riNri180102.

D3 | Hungry
This morning I read a joke "Start your morning with breakfast not smile so in the afternoon you won't be starving". What a funny joke😅😅
Then I've just felt how it is. This afternoon I was hungry. I didn't bring food or other to be eaten and I was still on the way with traffic jam. It was so annoying 😑
The quote that I've read said "Stay foolish, so we keep on studying. Stay hungry, so we keep on making an effort."
I took the lesson from the joke and the quote. First, if I hungry I can't think and when I ate, I want to eat everything. Then I will be a foodie so my diet is fail 😶
(Fact, i'm foodie but I want to be slim 😆).
Second, based on the quote. Stay foolish and hungry.  When we are foolish or hungry we will learn again and again. Keep on making an effort to know and do something better in our life.
The last but not the least, Don't satisfied. So we always learning more and try more.
..riNri180103.

D4 | Bored
When I start drawing tornadoes or something absurd. Fix, It's obvious, i'm bored. Do you know how does it feel ? I think you've felt it. It's so boring. No body text me or talk with me. I only open my social media such as Instagram, Line, Facebook, Whatsapp, Twitter. I only see notifications, scrolling my timeline, see my friend's post or their instastory. It's useless.
Then I put my phone and I just stunned to watch people around me, pay attention to what they do. And I think people "zaman now" is the same. They always hold their phone. They don't talk each other though they are together. What a boring circumstances.
If I'm bored I don't know what I want. Nothing to do 🙄
At the end, I found a joke said "Bored of being bored because being bored is boring" 😂
But, the word of wisdom said "Life is never boring but some people chose to be bored".
Yeah, I see. Maybe before I chose being bored :D
..riNri180104.

CHALLENGE TO IMPROVE MYSELF

-First Challenge-

   Long time no see. After a long time I disappeared, I want to greet new year with a new hope, new spirit, and a new breakthrough to face my better future life.
       So, I challenge my self to improve my writing skill in English. It is one of my resolution in 2k18. It's *One Day One Paragraph*.  Everyday, I will write one paragraph in english on January. There is new challenge each month for 2k18. Then, I will repost "One Day One Paragraph" in my blog in the last day of January.

Finally, I close this writing with a quote that I've got from email.

       

*Design by rinri*

"Life isn't just about finding yourself. It's about creating yourself and discovering opportunities that matter the most to you. Just like a book, everyday is a new page, every month is a new chapter, and every year is a new series. 365 blank pages, we decide what goes in them."

            A new year and a new story.

..riNri180102.

Maaf dan Terimakasih Maaakkk

Maakkk...
Terimakasih sudah melahirkan dan membesarkan mbak.
Terimakasih atas segala kasih sayang yg selama ini diberikan
Terimakasih untuk semua perjuangannya untuk menyekolahkan mbak sampai perguruan tinggi.
Mak.. terimakasih untuk segala kebaikan yg kalau disebutkan satu persatu takkan pernah ada habisnya dan terimakasih untuk segalanya yg tiada harga yg dpt menggantikannya.
Maakkk...
Maaf untuk keras kepala mbak
Maaf karena mbak selalu menyusahkan mamak
Maaf kalau mbak sering mengabaikan permintaan Dan nasehat mamak
Maaf karena tingkah laku mbak yg membuat mamak jengkel
Maaf kalau mbak sering menyakiti perasaan mamak.
Maaf untuk semuanya. Maaf bakti mbak sebagai anak belumlah sempurna.
Dan maaf mbak belum bisa membahagiakan mamak.

Aaarrrggghhh... Masih banyak yang ingin mbak tuliskan tentangmu mak, tentang rasa syukur mbak karena mamak dan tentang kesalahan mbak terhadap mamak.

Maaf dan terimakasih untuk 23 tahun ini mak.
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Anakmu
Sri Nur Lestari
19071994-19072017

            ..riNri170719.

*REMINDER FOR YOU RINRI*

'Mintalah kepada Allah, pasti akan Allah beri'.

Percayakah kau pada hal tersebut, aku yakin pasti kau mempercayainya.
Tapi tahukah kau...
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Sudah lama kau berdoa meminta sesuatu kepada-Nya, tetapi hingga saat ini belum juga dikabulkan ?
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Jika itu terjadi sesungguhnya hatimu sudah mati dalam sepuluh hal. Tahukah kau apa saja itu ??
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1. Kau mengetahuk Allah, tetapi hak-hak-Nya tidak ditunaikan.
2. Kau membaca Al-Qur'an, tetapi isinya tidak diamalkan.
3. Kau mengaku mencibtai Nabi Muhammad Sallallhu 'Alaihi Wasalam, tetapi sunah-sunah Beliau ditinggalkan.
4. Kau mengaku bermusuhan dengan setan, tetapi langkah-langkahnya diikuti.
5. Kau mengaku ingin masuk surga, tetapi tidak mempersiapkan bekalnya.
6. Kau mengaku takut dengan neraka, tetapi tidak menjauhi siksanya.
7. Kau mengakui kematian itu datang, tetapi tidak mempersiapkan diri untuk menjemputnya.
8. Kau sibuk dengan aib atau kejelekan saudara sendiri, tetapi lupa dengan aib atau kejelekan diri sendiri.
9. Kau menikmati karunia Allah, tetapi tidak pernah mensyukurinya.
10. Kau menguburkan jenazah saudaramu, tetapi tidak mengambil pelajaran darinya.
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Aku harap kau tidak seperti itu, agar doamu dikabulkan Allah Swt sebaiknya kau jangan sampai seperti itu.
Ini pengingat untukmu. Renungkanlah!!!

..riNri170529.

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..riNri170719.

"Kebetulan" kah ???

Percayakah kau pada "kebetulan" ???
Atau mugkin takdir ???
Atau kau mungkin hanya menganggapnya sebuah settingan belaka ???
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Mungkin sebagian orang akan menganggap ini hanya sebuah "kebetulan" saja. Dan sebagiannya lagi menganggap kejadian tanpa makna, memilih untuk melupakannya saja atau tak menganggapinya sama sekali. Dan juga ada yang mencoba mencari apa yang sebenarnya Allah ingin sampaikan lewat kejadian ini.  Bahkan ada yang tak mau ambil pusing, cukup jalani saja dan nikmati setiap prosesnya.
Ada di posisi manakah kau saat ini ??? Renungkanlah sejenak!!!
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Tapi aku percaya kalau setiap kejadian yang ada, semua hal yang terjadi dari kita dilahirkan sampai akhir hayat itu pasti sudah ditentukan. Bahkan jauh sebelum dan sesudahnya.
Yup aku rasa begitu semuanya setiap kejadian yang ada di dunia ini, di langit dan di bumi, baik sebelum tercipta maupun sesudahnya (kiamat), baik yang dialami oleh siapapun itu maupun apapun itu, semua sudah tercatat di "Lauh Mahfuz".
Tunggu sebentar, aku akan coba mencari dalil Al-Quran tentang ini.
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∆ " ......tidak ada sesuatu yang lebih kecil dan lebih besar dari itu, melainkan semua tercatat dalam kitab yang nyata (lauh mahfuz)" (QS. Yunus : 61)
∆ "Dan tidak satu pun makhluk bergerak (bernyawa) di bumi melainkan semuanya dijamin Allah rezekinya, Dia mengetahui tempat kediamannya dan tempat penyimpanannya. Semua tertulis dalam kitab yang nyata (lauh mahfuz)" (QS. Hud: 6)
∆ "Tidakkah engkau tahu bahwa Allah mengetahui apa yang di langit dan di bumi ? Sungguh, yang demikian itu sudah terdapat dalam sebuah kitab (lauh mahfuz). Sesungguhnya yang demikian itu sangat mudah bagi Allah". (QS. Al-Hajj : 70)
∆ "Dan tidak ada sesuatu pun yanvmg tersembunyi di langit dan di bumi, melainkan (tercatat) dalam kitab yang jelas (lauh mahfuz)". (QS. An-Naml : 75)
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Semakin jauh aku berjalan, semakin banyak aku mendatangi tempat/daerah yang belum pernah sama sekali aku datangi, semakin banyak bertemu orang baru, dan semakin membuatku sadar bahwa setiap kali menemui sesuatu, ataupun orang-orang yang aku jumlai setiap harinya. Aku menyadari kalau Allah ingin menyampaikan petunjuk padaku, dan juga manfaat/pelajaran yang bisa aku ambil dari kejadian tersebut.
Walaupun terkadang hal ini selalu menjadi pertanyaan " kok bisa ya??", "kenapa...kenapa aku pilihnya kuliah di sini dengan jurusan ini, atau bagaimana jadinya kalau aku enggak kuliah disini, bagaimana jadinya kalau aku enggak mengambil keputusan seperti ini, kok bisa setelah sekian lama gak ketemu sama teman SD, kami malah dipertemukan disini jauh dari domisili kami??" 
Dan pertanyaan lainnya yang kalau diteruskan akan membuatku gila.
Setelah aku membaca pengantar dalam sebuah handbook kursus online aku merasa mendapatkan sedikit pencerahan atas pertanyaan-pertanyaan yang berbau "kebetulan" tersebut.
Dan jawaban tersebut adalah lebih baik tidak lagi menganggap semua ini hanya kebetulan semata berhentilah menanyakan kenapa, bagaimana, kok bisa ya, dan pertanyaan lainnya. Karena "respon kita selanjutnya bisa jadi sangat menentukan untuk perkembangan kita". Terus menggali hikmah dan pelajaran yang bisa diambil dari kejadian tersebut.
Allah tidak akan pernah menciptakan sesuatu yang sia-sia bukan ?
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Dan aku rasa ini jawaban atas pertanyaanku
*kenapa aku bisa sampai sejauh ini
*bagaimana jadinya kalau aku tak memutuskan hijrah
*bisakah aku melakukan perjalanan yang lebih jauh lagi ?
*bagaimana jadinya kalau waktu itu aku mengurungkan niat untuk silaturrahmi dengan pramanda di IPB
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*dan seterusnya.

..riNri170516.

Waktu Itu Part1

Ketika Berharap Tapi Tidak Seperti Apa yang Diinginkan - Depresi

Sudah bakar.....bakar....bakar saja semua hal yang pernah kau tulis tentang impianmu itu.

Tidakkah kau lelah dengan semangat membara yang hanya sementara.

Kemudian apa ???

Kau terlelap dalam tidur panjang, berharap bunga tidurmu kan jadi nyata ???

Aku lelah kau hanya hidup dalam anganmu semata.

Tanpa berbuat apa-apa di dunia nyata.

Menjadi pesakitan di kamar berantakan yang kau rasa lebih nyaman daripada dunia luar.

Keluarlah.....keluaaar!!!!

Dunia ini indah, luas, jangan sampai kau Seperti katak di bawah tempurung.

Keluarlah kais rejeki yang berserakan.

Keluarlah dari zona nyamanmu.

Ya yang membuatmu selama ini merasa nyaman, rasa malasmu itu.

Berhentilah bermalas-malasan.

                                                     ..riNri170118.

Oooh Begitunya

Waktu itu ada yang berbeda.

Bahasa tubuhnya lain Dari biasanya.

Dia itu selalu ceria.

Ntah kenapa dia terlihat gunda gulana.

Kami bertanya-tanya kenapa dia.

Apakah dia berbeda Karena ada apa-apa.

Kami pun berfikir seketika.

Sepertinya...dia dalam bahaya. 

Dan tak bisa berbicara kepada siapa-siapa.

Sehingga dia terlihat begitu adanya.

Selidik demi selidik kami pun mulai mengetahuinya.

Tapi dia tetap tidak mau cerita.

Kami coba lagi mencari informasi tentangnya.

Akhirnya kami pun semakin mendapatkan kejelasannya.

Oh ternyata, dia sedang merana. 

Karena patah hatinya.

Di tinggal kekasihnya.

Akibat putus cintanya 

Oh begitunnya.

..riNri170327

Ketika Merasa Part2

 Kawaaannn...

Di manakah kalian saat ini ??

Aku benar-benar sedih...sendiri.

Sekarang aku rapuh serapuh-rapuhnya

Kawan...

Aku  membutuhkan kalian kawan...

Aku membutuhkan kalian di saat bahagia

Aku membutuhkan kalian disaat menderita

Aku membutuhkan kalian sebagai pelipur lara

Aku membutuhkan kalian setiap saat

Aku merindukan kalian kawan

Aku rindu tertawa bahagia bersama

Menikmati masa-masa yang paling menyenangkan

Adalah di saat kita bersama

Kemana saja kalian saat ini ???

Aku sendiri di sini.

..rinri170225..